On the Road Again

Today is Saturday, but for me its a Sunday.  I have what you call SNS or Sunday night syndrome.  I get it every night before I have to leave for another work trip.  No matter how often I travel, I just cannot seem to get used to it.  I try to be happy about it, and understand that it is my job, but it is just so hard to do.  I do love my job, and enjoy the work, I just hate being away from home.  Lately I have made a huge effort to be happier, and it takes a lot out of me!  I am hoping that I don't get stranded anywhere on this trip...but who knows?  Going to Petoskey, Michigan seems to up the stakes on getting stuck especially with a three leg flight to get there!  I do love the cold weather, but I do not love driving in the snow!  I hate that I have to leave on a Sunday, I mean...I am not getting paid enough to have my weekend cut short.  I need my weekends to relax and reconnect with Matt and have enough time for friends.  I also need weekends to tackle the mountains of laundry that seem to be piling up to larger heights more and more frequently.  At least all of the hotels I am staying at have gyms, so I can work out some of my loneliness there.  

Enough of the dreading of tomorrow!  I had a wonderful time at an old friend's house last night and it was nice to meet some new people.  Matt and I are definitely getting along better and we are on the same page finally.  I want to get a friend for my puppy Ty, but I am not home enough to validate adding on a family member.  I actually felt happy for the first time in a long time yesterday, and didn't even think about my fatness (or my insecurities...not that I am fat, but I always just think I am)   There is a lot to be said about mind over matter...and my desire to be happy is so strong that I think it may be working (slowly and bit by bit...but working nonetheless!)

Ciao!